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[Mar. 28th, 2008|02:35 pm] |
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| | First Day of My Life | ] |
H.O.L.Y. SHIT.
My life is a soap opera.
Unfulfilled love, finally expressed. It waited quietly for so long to blossom and so suddenly this barely veiled world opened.
With romantic words I never thought i would hear spoken to me. Things I've only heard in movies and songs.
How could they possibly be true and how could I mean that much to you?
And lastly; What on earth can we do??? |
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[Mar. 4th, 2008|07:01 pm] |
www.blackphoenixalchemylab.com
new scents that i ordered!! can't wait for them to arrive.
MATA HARI
A renowned exotic dancer and courtesan, possessed of aristocratic elegance, matchless charm, an iron will and a streak of fearlessness. The actual events of her life have met with much speculation, and to this day it is unclear whether or not she was truly a German spy. Despite shaky evidence of her guilt, she was tried for espionage by a closed court-martial and was executed by a French firing squad in 1917. Her scent is striking and bold with a delicate yet dark undertone: five roses with soft jasmine, warmed by vanilla, fig, tonka bean and mahogany, spiced with a drop of coffee bean.
BESS
Inspired by the tragic, ill-fated love of Queen Elizabeth I and the Earl of Leicester. This is our modernization of a 17th-century perfume blend favored by British aristocracy: rosemary, orange flower, grape spirit, five rose variants, lemon peel, and mint.
SCHRÖDINGER'S CAT
One can even set up quite ridiculous cases. A cat is penned up in a steel chamber, along with the following diabolical device (which must be secured against direct interference by the cat): in a Geiger counter there is a tiny bit of radioactive substance, so small that perhaps in the course of one hour one of the atoms decays, but also, with equal probability, perhaps none; if it happens, the counter tube discharges and through a relay releases a hammer which shatters a small flask of hydrocyanic acid. If one has left this entire system to itself for an hour, one would say that the cat still lives if meanwhile no atom has decayed. The first atomic decay would have poisoned it. The Psi function for the entire system would express this by having in it the living and the dead cat (pardon the expression) mixed or smeared out in equal parts. It is typical of these cases that an indeterminacy originally restricted to the atomic domain becomes transformed into macroscopic indeterminacy, which can then be resolved by direct observation. That prevents us from so naively accepting as valid a "blurred model" for representing reality. In itself it would not embody anything unclear or contradictory. There is a difference between a shaky or out-of-focus photograph and a snapshot of clouds and fog banks.
A paradoxical scent experiment! - tangerine, sugared lime, pink grapefruit, oakmoss, lavender, zdravetz, and chocolate peppermint.
SHATTERED
A scent as sharp as glass shards, and as brittle as a broken heart. The formula came to me - quite literally - in a dream, and is named after, and created in memory of, the last poem that I ever wrote… almost ten years ago to the day. A blend of white champagne notes, grapefruit, lotus, slivered mint and crystalline aquatic blooms.
LOLITA
Bright, sweet and youthful, but swelling with a poisonous sexuality. Glittering heliotrope, honeysuckle, orange blossom and lemon verbena.
THE TEMPTATION
The Demon, in my chamber high,
This morning came to visit me,
And, thinking he would find some fault,
He whispered: "I would know of thee
Among the many lovely things
That make the magic of her face,
Among the beauties, black and rose,
That make her body's charm and grace,
Which is most fair?" Thou didst reply
To the Abhorred, O soul of mine:
"No single beauty is the best
When she is all one flower divine.
When all things charm me I ignore
Which one alone brings most delight;
She shines before me like the dawn,
And she consoles me like the night.
The harmony is far too great,
That governs all her body fair,
For impotence to analyse
And say which note is sweetest there.
O mystic metamorphosis!
My senses into one sense flow --
Her voice makes perfume when she speaks,
Her breath is music faint and low!"
An expression of love, adoration, and desire, of beauty that transcends mortal desire and piques the interest of hell itself: attar of rose, calla lily, palmarosa, peach blossom, wisteria, rice flower, and black musk.
THE KING OF HEARTS
Rosewood and black cherry with white musk, red rose, red musk and a spark of lavender. |
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[Jun. 16th, 2007|01:26 am] |
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I officially have to get the fuck back to New York |
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[May. 8th, 2007|05:44 pm] |
Inspired by Lena (aka stolen from Lena):
Posting things I've been wanting for so long but can't afford because somehow it makes me feel better. I'm putting in every color I want, which is about all of them, just because I can. Now I'll remember forever and when I can afford them in five years I'll know exactly which ones I want!
in lapis, sea blue, forest green, white, sunshine, light pink, and apricot.
http://store.americanapparel.net/6456w.html
in yellow, sea blue, grass, eggplant, and mauve
http://store.americanapparel.net/s388.html
in any/every color
http://store.americanapparel.net/rsa6335.html#i
I don't really know why I want this, but I do. Navy, Red, Black, White
http://store.americanapparel.net/rsas314.html
In black and asphalt
http://store.americanapparel.net/rsatt328.html
I'm tired of listing colors. Any color.
http://store.americanapparel.net/8325.html
Wheee! That was a fun way to not study and still be too lazy to put up any actual updates of my life.
I will be a college graduate in 10 days!!! |
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[Apr. 12th, 2007|01:22 am] |
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| |  vengeful | ] |
Much as I wish I had a boyfriend of my own, sometimes I'm glad I don't. And at those times, I would really enjoy punching my friends' boyfriends in the face. Or the balls. Or maybe both. |
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[Jul. 9th, 2006|01:47 pm] |
ITALY WON THE WORLD CUP
MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAA |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2006|11:40 pm] |
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| |  excited | ] |
this weekend = road trip to oregon to see damion rice and fiona apple with Lily, Chelsea, and Sarah!!
it was such a fun time driving there, and stopping at the huge bookstore in powell, oregon and buying a million sci-fi books, and finding a syringe under one of the motel beds. While in Portland, Oregon we stumbled upon a blues festival where Dr. John was playing!! He was, of course, amazing, and we got hit on by funny skeezy guys who pretended to have a boat.
The show in Bend was AMAZING. Damion Rice was DAMN good, and Fiona was just... brilliant times a million. She twitches and dances and hides behind the piano and screams things that people can't hear. She also sounds fantastic live.
After the show, we saw Phee-Dogg (Fiona to those who aren't super pals with her) head over to her bus behind a fence thing and some trailers. So, of course, we followed her. On the other side of the fence of course. At the very end of the fence we found that there was a gap through which we could easily slip. We didn't want to be annoying though, so we didn't go through.
Then we told some random girls about it, and they (being under the influence of something) went straight on through. They were quickly apprehended, but managed to wheedle the guy into letting them take a picture with Fiona!! The gap was totally discovered by us, and they took our thunder! So, we slipped through.
We were also instantly apprehended, and the guy was really nice about it, and said we had to go, so we said 'OK, we totally understand' and all that. Then he was like, 'Yeah, you guys are Oregonians, so of course you're cool'. That's when my brilliance came into play.
'Actually, we came here from Seattle. We drove six hours to get here.' Then he said that she would be playing Seattle in a couple of days, and why didn't we go then? To which we answered that the Oregon tickets were 2 for 1. (yeah yeah, it cost more for gas, motels, food, but the experience was worth it) Then he told us, 'Tell you what, one of you give me a name, and I'll put four tickets on hold for you guys at the willcall booth for the Seattle show. I'm Fiona's manager.' EEEEEEEEEK!
So, we went to the show tonight! Our good pal Steve the manager totally hooked us up with sixth row seats, and we got to thank him right when we got there. Sure, back stage passes would have been super amazing, but Steve sure did right by us anyway. The show was amazing all over again, and it was just super incredible. I'm still in shock over the luck we had!
WE LOVE YOU STEVE!!!!!!!! |
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[Jun. 5th, 2006|12:48 pm] |
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aaah a new day and a new attitude. :) |
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[Jun. 1st, 2006|07:03 pm] |
This is just a super quick one, but I dyed my hair! The roots are gone, and it's lighter and it's cut wayyy better. Yay!!!
( stupid face, but oh well ) |
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[Mar. 30th, 2006|01:48 pm] |
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| |  enthralled | ] |
| [ | music |
| | sublime | ] |
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[Feb. 16th, 2006|07:18 pm] |
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| |  amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | america's next top model | ] |
sooo today's outfit was pretty fun. i fiiinally wore my target skirt!
i kinda like this picture
today's self esteem boost = kelsey wanting me to be her standing model for her photography. :)
( clothes clothes clothes ) |
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[Feb. 4th, 2006|10:00 am] |
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| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | birds outside | ] |
fuck.
drank last night and got really sick.
i only had four shots!
i don't get that way over four shots!
maybe the pot... i haven't smoked in a while, so maybe that, added to not eating very much beforehand caused it.
i don't remember how i got into bed...
i remember all of my suitemates being with me, and being fucking amazing to me.
i am so grateful and i am so thankful for having them.
especially lena and kelsey and shannon.
i'm going to feel so embarrassed asking what happened between being in sam's room and being in mine.
i feel bad for being so fucked up and throwing up in front of them all.
i honestly don't even know why it happened.
i drank fast too.
ok, so i'm going to have to guess that drinking fast plus not eating very much plus smoking equals me puking my brains out.
now i have a headache and can't fall back asleep. |
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[Jan. 28th, 2006|02:45 am] |
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| |  DRUNK | ] |
Reply to this entry by posting a picture of yourself in the comments;
then post this sentence in your own journal.
you know you want to. you're all s'damn vain! |
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[Jan. 25th, 2006|12:55 pm] |
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| |  crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | something | ] |
it's pretty official.
he's not going to ask me out again.
i don't know why.
what did i do?
we're talking
i gave him tons of perfect openings to ask me out/over again
but no.
and i'm sure he knew exactly what he was doing.
it seemed to go so well
what went wrong?
i'll probably never know
i thought it might go somewhere
i dared to hope and
as usual
my hopes were well crushed
i've never cared this much before
i wished i hoped i prayed but he
just
doesn't
want
me |
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[Jan. 21st, 2006|01:19 am] |
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| | drunk | ] |
| [ | music |
| | aldga;lksdhf | ] |
grahg
i'm so upset
andrew actually invited me to his apartment to see a movie
and now he says he may have to cancel but he won't know until tomorrow
and if he does i'm going to be really sad
he has a super legit excuse
but i'll blame it on me and my fatness anyway
if he cancels he'll probably never invite me back again
he'll realize he was being stupid and didn't really want me
i'm so stupid
how could i think he liked me
im going to be alone for the rest of my life.
with lots of cats. |
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[Dec. 19th, 2005|10:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | something classical on the radio | ] |
alright, so for those who don't know, i cut my hair.
sadly, i wanted to surprise everyone with it, but i want to post my pictures. so there.
i look like such shit in both of them. oh well.
( yes, i'm a loser. ) |
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[Dec. 12th, 2005|04:12 pm] |
 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
Last month I pushed ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) myowndirection in the mud (-17 points). In July I set a_fucking_lady's puppy on fire (-66 points). Last Sunday I ate my brussel sprouts (1 points). In October I put money in n00t_gliimwoswa's expired parking meter (14 points). In September I ruled Duluth, Minnesota as a kind and benevolent dictator (700 points).
Overall, I've been nice (632 points). For Christmas I deserve an Easy-Bake Oven!
Sincerely,
eternal_pagan |
stolen from the lovely jenna who i will be seeing so very soon!!!
PS TO JENNA - can i spend next tuesday night at your house? the SEASON FINALE of nip tuck is on and i will miss it unless i'm with you!!! i'll give you a cookie from the il fornio cafe downtowwwwwn |
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[Dec. 12th, 2005|03:10 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "comfortable" John Mayer | ] |
alright, let's just condense these results into one entry. i shall only post the ones that i think really do describe me. that will cut out a few. haha.
| Your World View |
You are a happy, well-balanced person who likes people and is liked by others.
You question whether many conventional views on morality are valid under all circumstances.
You are essentially a content person.
Sometimes, you consider yourself a little superior.
You are moral by your own standards.
You believe that morality is what best suits the occasion. |
| Your 1920's Name is: | 
Ophelia Aurora |
| The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic | 
Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few.
But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky.
Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski |
| The Keys to Your Heart | 
You are attracted to good manners and elegance.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
although it's sad that i'm destined to be a cheater. haha. tell all the hot boys at the UW lily! i need some booty this winter break! nothing monogomous. lol.
| Your Birthdate: September 27 | 
You are a spiritual soul - a person who tries to find meaning in everything.
You spend a good amount of time meditating, trying to figure out life.
Helping others is also important to you. You enjoy social activities with that goal.
You are very generous and giving. Yet you expect very little in return.
Your strength: Getting along with anyone and everyone
Your weakness: Needing a good amount of downtime to recharge
Your power color: Cobalt blue
Your power symbol: Dove
Your power month: September |
haha i even try to find meaning in stupid lj quizzes. alright. realllly need to sleep. |
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